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[03]Have fun in da year, as much as I...
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    (Monday, April 30, 2007/4:15 PM)

    Today a few of us slightly more... creative in our writing, as well as the rest of e class had gotten back our descriptive essays... I was sorta expecting relatively good marks...

    But only 19/30. Sobz.

    WHY?!?! THE DUMB-A$$ simple grammar mistakes.... sobz. T.T I was rushing more into the story plot than heading for cautious grammar... sucks to be me. I'd really got the mood into it... its just... grrrr. So sad. Could've gotten MUCH more if not for the basic grammar concepts I had totally ignored. Sadd-ED.

    Eza's... Takuhino's and Ben's are pretty funny to read. Go check them out.... if ya know themm. XD Like... Mr Loi corrected 'Goth' to 'Gothic'... Lubba-wahahaha.


    Essays.. meh. Only if the topics are interesting, would me n Eza do well.. I think.


    Word has it that a band will finally be forming. But I don't know. And I don't know wad guitar to get. Jet-san reconmended something... but it looks pretty common all around Singapore. I mean really. But... ah...

    Neil Zaza's I'm Alright is TOTALLY stuck in my head. >.> Can't get it out... must get guitar.. fast.


    O- GUITARGUITARGUITARGUITAR, I'll SOUND GAY BUT WHEN WILL YOU BE MINE?!?!?!?!




    ....











    Buzz.


    posted by yournamehere. murder me? | 0 murdered me.

    (Saturday, April 28, 2007/12:47 PM)

    There's this tangy stinging feeling at the back of my throat...

    For I've drank down some celery+carrot+apple juice...

    Mom+Dad's creation.

    Extra down days previously. Thus no post. Cuz it'll sound like I'ma whiny complainin bitch.

    ...I have a feelin' I'm gonna flunk everything in my life.

    I needa somethin to pull me up.


    But I'm listening to down music...wahaha. Songs are sorta self-explanatory... Enjoy.


    ...




    In no talking mood. BooodDye.


    posted by yournamehere. murder me? | 0 murdered me.

    (Tuesday, April 24, 2007/7:59 PM)






    Oookay.







    I'm so SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY !!!!!!!
    GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN!!!!!!!!!!


    Why?

    Koalas
    Octopus
    Jelly
    Itami
    Monkey
    Arashii

    !!!!

    E second stanza of my post onwards was refering to YOOOUUUU ... GOMENNE!!!!!!!! Pls don't go kill yourself by that 'pretty fine bloody explosion'!!!! Its my fault alright? My dumbdumb error, ne? Please I'm sorry.


    I know you're mad. I can tell by yer words. I posted something to explain my error, but stilll...


    If ya don't wanna post in that rp again, its fine.... it was my very own stupid mistake to begin with... I don't know how else can I make it up to ya. =/


    posted by yournamehere. murder me? | 0 murdered me.

    (Monday, April 23, 2007/9:17 PM)

    ALRIIIGHT.

    COUNTDOWN: 4 or 3? Wakaka.


    I can tell, that as I start typing this, the more I forget about what events or wad-so-ever that has happened recently. Saddening, no?


    Today's exam.. bleah.

    Gg le.



    Then Internet goes f**k-a-rooni. As I log in and AFTER logging in to post this damn post, ALL THE WORDS, like the OPTIONS and CODINGS and EDITING OF POSTS and all that crap...


    They're ALL in Japanese. (!!!)


    プレビュー means preview or something. o.O

    太字 means bold, 斜体 means italics... you get the drift...


    And because I copied and pasted it, my blogger has a gained a new japanese typing font thingy. U ppl bette don't come asking me how e hell I did it, but it definately was something my dad did... unintentionally.

    Alright well, Faz has intro-ed this album Santi by The Academy Is... and they sound pretty okay...

    Oh yea. Mom's bought sme new blender, since I've been telling her the wonders of making own and 'personal' milkshakes/smoothies...

    Okay its not that everything worked smoothly as just...

    The blender wasn't quite spinning its dumb blades, but after the persistent and patient tries of fixing and un-fixing (xD) it finally spun...

    Then I accidentally clicked it to MAX... and the lid few and so did the inside filter as some juice splattered on our faces. Sincerely, my heart was thumping. But my ever so calm mom simply tip-toed to switch off e main switch power, not caring if she kenna more splotches of e muck. Lmao.

    Then finally, with my accutely-anyhow add proportion of igredients, e banana milkshake was soo heavenly... just that it was home-made. -.-"" (Note: e first test upon making blender spin, we tossed some unwanted fruits in to see if it can really cut... or some other reason like that.)


    ...


    And now my mom is still experimenting with the diffrent fruit combinations.. or at least making combinations with those we have... A.k.a she's getting rid of them fruitss as fluids for us to gulp down. She agreed with me it was her new toy to played with, but only after a few more nights like this, she'll get tired of it. xD

    And tonight's drink was carrot + tomato + apple... She neva listened to what I suggested.. thn dad rated it 3/5 nia... lmao. Told her liao worz...


    Its okay, when i get home... I will try in my own time...


    Oh gawd I'm like her now, toy-blender wise. XD

    Alright some other stuff I wanna post about...

    BPP
    Faz's intro: Shanti
    Tagboard replies

    Guitar Grading results...?

    Alright, buzzbuzz. Adios.


    goodbye, phantom of e opera... T.T


    posted by yournamehere. murder me? | 0 murdered me.

    (Friday, April 20, 2007/8:43 PM)

    All e more I'm falling in love with F.O.B and 'Simple and Clean'... x)



    Alrighty-o. As you can see my tagboard, quite a number of taggies I've received. XD And y'all saw Dexter-sempai's post. Yup, we got SILVER. Hurrah!! MIGHTY THANKIES TO ALL WHO WERE THERE TO SING AND SUPPORT US!!! (Yesh, Ms Lee too. xP)


    I'd actually felt gloomy e entire afternoon, as me and Eza (Eza and I... yeayea standard english crap...but wadever x] ) went around West Mall... We had practically flunked Kyrie... my fav... sorta. And it was e second song. Arirang truly saved us.

    But I believe there are some other factors that made us get Silver...

    Firstly, when e judges walked past, they commented 'nice costume'... And I guessed Ms Lee understood their tastes? Wth....? Same age group de bah... o.O? The judges are clearly non-local... at least, most are. Then one of them had quite an odd accent when he said 'SING~ WELL~'... okay its like, undescribable but we understood it... lmao.

    And another thing is that... the attire they wore were MORE, MUCH MORE TRADITIONAL than we expected judges for choir singing would. Like... modern shirt underneath a sari-like scarfy thingy? And one or two wearing those punjabi suits... Ehhhh.

    Anyways, I guessed I moved WAAY TOO MUCH ON STAGE, LMAO. OKAY NOT FUNNY, BUT I GUESS THAT SINCE I'M PUTTING THESE WORDS ON CAPS, WHY NOT SMALLER??? SO YEA. ...And I kept smiling... Somehow, it makes singing easier. Wahahaz.

    So shuang. Now that I know we got silver. Got one other senior said that we oughtta be glad if we get bronze... n now... I'm jus content. ^^


    HAHA. ABOUT MY AFTERNOON AFTER-SYF BLUES's Proceedure? Nibbled some MOSBurger...less than halfway through feel full liao. WHY? I gabbled and sappled on some FRESH MILK. THE MILK WAS LIKE HOLY WATER FROM E HOLY GRAIL... and had somehow made me more worried about e SYF. =.=" I didn't look like it though. Or at least she'd nvr noticed... more focussed on Tsubasa Chronicles. I drank finish e lil' bottle right BEFORE e burger came... wtf. Took so long. >.<

    Thn walked around loh. Giggling and gagging whereever we went... sarcasm thickly LUSH in e atmosphere. I had a TOUGH dECISION TO MAKE THEN. WHICH CARTON OF MILK SHOULD I BUY THEN?!?! HAhaz. I felt like drinking more... How troublesome to my mind. lmao. Then she bought some Yougurt... nthat was bloody bitter. lmao. We tried adding some of my milk (KEEP HORMONES IN CHECK PLS) to try 'nullifying' e taste... e pathetic tub of yougurt was a hopeless case. Ah well.


    I've been so distant in my mind recently, its like my future is all fogged and clogged. But something that is evident is.... DA ELECTRIC GUITAR!!!!!!!!!! DAD, QUICKLY GET ME ONE!!!!!! >.<


    posted by yournamehere. murder me? | 0 murdered me.

    (Wednesday, April 18, 2007/4:24 PM)

    COUNTDOWN: 6

    So yer... blaburblaburblabur. I've not been posting? Yeeeaa... >.>

    Listened to Fall Out Boy's latest album TODAY... KUDOS TO FAz!!!! ^^ And some Utada Hikaru... like 'Simple and Clean'. So niiice. About time I changed e songs in my MP3 again. Its SOOOO hard to truly satisfy wad I wanna listen... odd. o.O

    Today had music lesson... and test. Baha. E class went through e songs we were to select... then pair up to sing. The proceedure somehow, seemed very 'DAWTS' overall. Haha. Like e song 'When a Child is Born'? There's not much of a choice anyway. >.>

    Today's English lesson for me was pretty DAWTS too. A number of us had to go up and write our first paragraphs of what our minds had conjured up for two topics of some 2006 paper 1. Ben's was cute, lmao! He had no choice but to write the second paragraph, since his first was like...

    "I'm late."

    Yup. Tat's all to it. XD

    The choir costume is actually not that bad looking. I had a MAJOR sigh of relief. Its quite comfortable too. Wahahahaz. Just that e top makes me itchy. Damn rough netting-like fabric and e glitter falling all over my house... well at least over my bed. Amazingly, ALOT is still on the costume... o.O

    Exams are next week, almost everyone whos blogging is going on hiatus.. but heck. x)

    C'mon... wish me and all e other choir members all e best for this Friday! MINNA, GANBATTE!!!!!


    posted by yournamehere. murder me? | 0 murdered me.

    (Friday, April 13, 2007/8:44 PM)

    Sports Day... and a lovely night out on e expressway...


    Meaning tat my dad took mom n I speeding about. Love e night lights. =3


    Ah well. Sports day, to me, was fiiiiiiiiine. And my dad pointed out that I was pretty much accomplished on that day. Why?

    Cuz e poeple competing were either from netball, basketball, v.ball etcetc. While I was in choir. lmao. Aiya I'm not haolian kz? XD

    Zi High...~


    I did VERY badly for 100m dash. What hav I said in moi previous post? >.>

    Long jump was alright. Regretted resting so damn long for e remaining three jumps. Sheesh. Got third. I veri tyco. Yippeee.

    And I didn't know until that morning.. about 4x100. We sorta aced it, getting in second place. I didn't really know what was going on after I passed e baton on, but I had my kicks. My other zi HIGH moment. Haha. 2nd runner if ya don't know.

    When I told my dad, overall he said that I lack training. Cuz all I do for my cca is standing and singing my guts out.

    Senior Jia Xuan was at e 4x100m for upper sec girls. Yay. She ran well too. I practically yelled for her and Joanne jie. Yahoo!~


    MIGHTY KUDOS GOES TO FARHANAH, who had won overall champion amazingly. First runner for 4x100 too. Wheee.

    ~

    Dad n I have TOTALLY some high understanding towards certain music. I leave him to his oldies, and I play sport listening along, and he listens to all e noisy stuff I listen to... he likes it too. ^^ And then one day our form teach. Mr Quek go n play those 90s (notsure =P) music stuff during reading period... like my 2nd dad like that. omigawd.

    Us 5 sassy ladies at e very back row were singing along or lip syncing. Lmao. He was enjoying our entertainment as much as we enjoy ourselves. Lmao.

    ~

    So yea... we were in e car, dad speedin his ass off so easily and we had a great time. Mom was slightly worried aobut e speeding part... but we're back in three pieces (3 ppl, duh). We ALWAYS were. Baha.

    And actually, from our measly island there are MANY MANY stars to be seen on a clear night sky. All ye hav to do is jus actually look out for them. They're puny... but nice. I wanted to join e SAS mentioned somewhere in either March or April's Reader Digest... Yup, Sky Appreciation Society. =3

    ~

    Today had lunch at Burger King at West Mall... Saw Ku Niang. I couldn't help but blurt out...

    "...Ku Niang?" Then Xiao Hui saw wei jie e chipmunk-like eater. Then we realised we got ALOT of stares. WHY? CUZ E WHOLE V.BALL TEAM WAS THERE. INCLUDING V.LEE. They B.Boys had their finals yesterday...

    LIKE OMFG. WADS WORST? I SAID TAT NICKNAME AND I DIDN'T KNOW V.LEE WAS THERE. WTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTHWTH. SO Embarrassing CanZ?!?!?!~ >.< I really hope those B.boys do not recognise me as their c-girl frm last yr. Wahz. (T.T)

    ~

    Omigosh. My butt's ACTUALLY CRAMPING. Haha no biggie. xP Mighty thanks for Faz letting me listen to e current FOB's album... at least, e first few songs of e album.. for now.


    posted by yournamehere. murder me? | 0 murdered me.

    (Wednesday, April 11, 2007/8:39 PM)

    Now where do I start?

    The upcoming SYF.. eh?

    The costume... from what Ms Lee had said...

    FLORAL PATTERN...

    Its definately bad omen. I've seen a previous yr's costume... It was... more peranakan(pardon me if e spellin is wrong) and traditional... Not like... Modern/elegant looking or resembled as a choir costume. =/ But I know that our seniors were awesum that year. =3

    So yea... had to buy black high-heels... mind u, aint those strappy kinds... like, office-looking ones.. o.O But I duuno, but we must all do well. regardless of costume...

    But I believe first impression counts.. damn. And...never mind.

    COUNTDOWN: 8

    O-wth... sports day'ss this friday. N e stuff I wanna get in.. I didn't. And those that I don't want at all.. I got in.

    100m & long jump. bummer. Its e first said sports item I'm pissed off about. I HATE running in straight lines, okay? >.<>.>

    Long jump.. half of e tries I got foul.. still got into finals. I'm tat retarded. XD

    I don't hav faith.. alright? Everyone in yellow house did their stuff so well.. that day... except for me.. So pai seh. >.<

    And.. pray it doesnt rain. I HATE humidity. *Clasps hand in prayer...*


    ~


    Today... e funniest part during PE was slipping off the muddy/wet field and bounced on e ground TWICE before landing on moi butt. Bwahaha. I was tempted to fall down again... but my leg was throbin at e shin. dang.


    And I realised I've been shifting my thoughts from one to another pwetty fast. I don't know why. Don't mind me. I'm like this tonight.


    Lalalalaa...~


    posted by yournamehere. murder me? | 0 murdered me.

    (Saturday, April 07, 2007/10:45 PM)

    COUNTDOWN: 9 (As if anyone thought about this, but hell.)

    There's a response to this. How sweet.

    So I'll show it here anyway. Tell me if this makes any sense in Life.


    Once, you were an angel. It seemed to me that you were perfection in human form, beautiful and godlike. I never fit in with the rest of ‘your crowd’, but you accepted me with a quiet confidence that everyone else would too. It thrilled me that I soon because your confidante and holder of secrets. For a year you called me at least twice a week to have me help you with your life. And I did. I gave you all my time and rearranged my life around you, even if you didn’t know. There was nobody but you in my life that held nearly as much importance.

    Then, something happened. Slowly, your button downs and designer jeans and expensive sneakers were replaced with cheap, goodwill bargains. One day, you wore black. A color I had never seen on you, and thought I never would. “Black is too depressing,” you had told me once. “It reminds me too much of death and funerals.”

    But there you were, wearing a black sweater that was slightly unraveling at the cuffs and holding a slowly dying fire in your eyes. It killed me.

    From then on, you became withdrawn into yourself, and a social life had very little importance to you. Whenever I called, your mother answered the phone and told me you had locked yourself in your bedroom, demanding absolutely no disturbances. Since when was I, your confidante, a disturbance? I, whom you could tell your innermost troubles, and often did, was now shut out of your life. Your old circle of friends had abandoned you, saying things like “goth freak”, “pot head”, and “depressed little poser”. I knew better. There was something wrong, but you wouldn’t let me help you.

    A week later you shocked many by dying your hair black. Once, it had been a light brown, short and fastidiously styled. Now it was long and unkempt, greasy more days then not. More black entered your wardrobe, and soon that was all you wore. That golden tan you once prided faded into pale, pale skin and you looked like a ghost wondering the school.

    Notebooks started appearing. You wrote feverishly in classes, but nearly failed over half of them. Your mother called me in desperation, demanding to know what had happened to her honor roll son who was the delight of all his teachers. I told her I didn’t know, but I would find out.

    I was at your house within the hour, pounding on your door, screaming at you to let me in.

    “Open your door, Jeremy. Damnit! You haven’t called me in weeks, you never speak to me in school, and you’ve pulled away from everybody. All your old friends have abandoned you and your grades have dropped like a rock. Let me in! I want to know what’s going on, and I want to know now.”

    There was a dead silence for almost a full minute, and then I heard your sweet, tingles-down-my-spine voice for the first time in I couldn’t remember. “Leave me be, Lisa. What does it matter to you?”

    I was shocked. I spat back at you, “Who are you? The Jeremy I know would call me and we would talk for hours. The Jeremy I know always had a smile for the world. The Jeremy I know paid attention to things like his grades and his friends and was concerned with they’re affairs. The Jeremy I know cared. I guess I’m at the wrong house. You don’t give a damn.” I ended quietly and started walking away from the door, fighting the tears.

    As I reached the stairs, I heard the door creak open, and then click shut. Two notebooks lay on the hallway carpet, with a sticky note on one of the covers. I blinked away the tears and came back, picking them up. The note said: Apparently, you still give a damn. –Jeremy

    What was I supposed to do? I sat in your hallway, flipping through pages and scanning. One held writings ranging from poetry to poetic rants to journal entries, and the other had drawings. The drawings shocked and yet intrigued me, so I went through it first. Bleeding hearts, grotesque landscapes and dark figures filled the pages. Everything held a depressive, twisted aura. I shuddered and picked up the other notebook. Everything was dark. The poetry screamed of years of holding in pain and finally giving in. The rants were all about everyone being fake, including himself. The journal entries showed a venerable lost boy that I didn’t know existed. Where was the boy I have fallen in love with so long ago?

    I quietly picked up everything and went downstairs and picked up a pen from the office desk. I went back upstairs, and wrote on the other side of the sticky note ten words. I give more then a damn. I love you. - Lisa

    I took a deep breath, and knocked on your door again, this time softly. I was about to turn away again when you opened the door. Suddenly, the world skewed a bit and I had to force myself to focus. I couldn’t remember the last time we were this close.

    I handed over the notebooks and reached out for your face. I ran my fingertips across your cheekbone and whispered, “One of us has to. And I couldn’t live with myself if I stopped caring about you.”

    I wanted so badly to kiss you, but didn’t. Instead I backed away and left you. I left your house and returned to mine. And here I am now, unsure as to what I should do next. I’ve eaten dinner and showered, and now I’m left in my room, thinking of you. You, who was once my angel. You, who has now become my angel fallen from grace.

    So Yea.

    I would like to make a few words conjured up for a bit of imporant memory that falters whenever I blog. Lol.

    Firstly, Faz and I had a twisted/awesum time laughin during homework period. We were thinkin.. comical, and some of it... okay MOST of it regarding Augustus Loi. lmao.

    We weren't offending him about his ways of stuff and all, jus that he's patrolling around the corridors.. and Faz has been on e giggly lookout... so yea. XD And about Augustus Gloop too. Haha. We tio punished for a short while anyway, by standing at the corridor like a look-out millitant or something, with Zhao Kai doin push-up position. We girls thank our lucky stars. XD

    So yea.


    I had just stumbled upon that amazing write that made me SOOOOO wanna blog.


    The link's here=>
    http://www.eliteskills.com/z/93938 The response passage for the write is in the same link. =)

    Please do not copy the above passage and take it as your own. Only sore losers, whimps, shit/dickheads do so.


    posted by yournamehere. murder me? | 0 murdered me.

    (Friday, April 06, 2007/9:31 PM)

    Catch Me When I Fall

    Is anybody out there
    Does anybody see
    That when the lights are off something's killing me
    I know it seems like people care
    Cause they're always around me
    But when the day is done and everybody runs


    Who will be the one to save me from myself
    Who will be the one who's there
    And not ashamed to see me crawl
    Who's gonna catch me when I fall


    When the show is over
    And it's empty everywhere
    It's so hard to face going back alone
    So I walk around the city
    Anything, anything to clear my head
    I've got nowhere to go oh nowhere but home


    Who will be the one to save me from myself
    Who will be the one who's there
    And not ashamed to see me crawl
    Who's gonna catch me when I fall


    It may seem I have everything
    But everything means nothing
    When the ride that you been on
    That you're coming off
    Leaves you feeling lost
    Is anybody out there
    Does anyobdy see
    That sometimes loneliness is a part of me


    Who will be the one to save me from myself
    Who will be the one who's there
    And not ashamed to see me crawl
    Who's gonna catch me when I fall
    Who's gonna catch me when I fall
    Who's gonna catch me when I fall

    And not ashamed to see me crawl
    Who's gonna catch me when I fall



    I've changed e skin now. Blah. And a song by Ashlee Simpson. Wheee.

    Will I know e results of e gradin exam tomorrow? I wonder. Ain't a big deal anyway...

    And I've wasted my life today. What a good Friday. Doing practically nothing. I LOVE such days. Baha. Now somehow I do not want the future coming up...



    I remembered reading a blog of a jc student... or something. She had good grades and all... said that she'd discussed with her mom about her getting a job... her worry about it all... and she ESPECIALLY didn't know what she wanted to do as her job.

    And her mom just dropped the bombshell, "I leave you to do anything you want now."

    And she said, "But it was too late." Time went by all on the studying... and she couldn't get to do what she loved. Her parents only mentioned 'study,study, do well'. "How could they leave me hanging here like this? after going this far in education, why now?" The years to harness what she truly loved... gone just like that.

    U get wad I mean. That's why I detest Singapore's education system. But... can this 'couldn't be helped mah' reason be sufficient on singapore students to continue to do well? That's bull.

    Anyways, looking for some romantic good book? Be on a look-out for Montanta Sky by Nora Roberts. Shall be reading more of her books from now onwards. =)


    ...


    That remind's me of the busy list of books I wanna read... PLUS NORA ROBERTS, like wth. x.X


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    (Thursday, April 05, 2007/9:50 PM)

    I'll make this post quickk...

    COUNTDOWN: 11

    So yea...

    Today choir so fun sia. Normally we had the left door locked, while e right door open pushable (they're double doors, if you're to dumb to realise) Then today.. it was otherwise. Mr Yong would look out for those who filed in at later times during our practice... Lmao. It was TOTALLY like AMerican Idol!!!

    Except that we had no one that managed to bang through the locked side of the door. lmao.

    So yea... a number of people would push the right, then they'll find out its lock, and then PULL the left side; and it does not open as well. Lmao. Finally they'd push the left door. Haha. Like human psychology. Lmao.

    Thn today got e recordings from Victoria C.H that day, we listened through and spotted lmao-ish mistakes. Haha. Today's really great. =)

    Except... for the muscle cramps ALL OVER AGAIN.

    The week before, I had sports hits for 100m and Long Jump. Cramp.

    Last week I had 200m dash sports hit. I re-tore my thigh muscle or something. Cramp.

    This week, e stupid 197cm SJB, plus this morning's 2.4km run. Glorious CrampS.

    And guess what? Around next week its SPORTS DAY. T.T

    How can I go on tearing and re-tearing my legs all ove again?! Can I really do well if my muscles go on groaning? I don't think so. I'm not worried about e pain much... Okay YES I DO worry, cuz its been like, CONSECUTIVE WEEKS, like wth. But other than that, I can bear with it, jus that... I don't think I can perform on e big sports day...


    WHO ASKED ME TO EVEN GET INTO E FINALS FOR 200m?! T.T



    Ah well, that's life. And in about two more weeeks time.. Horrendous exams. Baha.


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    (Tuesday, April 03, 2007/8:31 PM)


    To Dear Exams: I know that ya get curses from us students worldwide all year around, but fuk u.

    -TZR


    In about 3 more weeks time... like wth.

    And...hmm? Guitar exam? An Eurasian from somewhere came over to carry out e exam. Very SHUANG cuz I skipped school for e whole day. While u guys make-do with canteen food, I had CAFE GALILEE pasta and Cookies Vanillia Frappe at Jurong East Library. The drink is heavenly. =D

    So basically yea the grading was fine. I was really hoping to get a high distinction... but that seemed impossible. A distinction will totally satisfy me. A HIGH distinction will just... intoxicate. XD


    Today had e five items for NAPHA. Knowing I can never get full marks for all items, I'm pretty much satisfied with my scores... SCRATCH THAT, I'm not content with it. It all lies down on...

    THE FREAKIN' NUMBA 3. WHY?!?! Cuz....

    1) I had to get a third try to get an A for sit&reach. (This I'm glad e teacher gave me e chance)
    2) 3 more pull-ups to get an A
    3) 0.3 seconds less of my current shuttle run timing to get it to what I want.
    4) 3 more sit-ups to get 50 in a minute
    AND 5) 3 more cm to get 2m for SJB.

    Other than that, I'm pretty much sober. Its like, I RARELY exercise now, I've amazed mysef..somehow. And somehow I didn't.


    Bawhaw.

    Ps. I learned that Mr Loi was a tenor (and might still be) in his choir. Like, he really was in choir??? Hmm.

    Pps. Austin, if you'd ever stumble upon this post, I THANK YOU LOADS FOR YOUR SUPPORT. Though the words were few, they meant alot to me. Thank you. ^^

    Ppps. Dear readers. Do NOT mix up Austin with Mr Loi. I know e first 3 (damn this blased number. Grr.) letters seem to be e same, but noooo, they're different people. Ayeaye? =)



    Adios senorita(s).

    Countdown: 12


    I don't care. As long as I don't see your face, I'm fine without you.


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