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[01]New Mp3(Got a new MP4 now =3)
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[03]Have fun in da year, as much as I...
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[09]Choir SYF-GoldSilver
[10]Striped thigh-high socks
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    (Saturday, March 25, 2006/9:44 PM)

    Hey...

    Long time no post. lol.

    Alright. Where shall I start...

    I'll start to say that I updated.

    I know, not blogging for quite some time... Here's what had happened.

    Another fight with the stinkin' idiot again over a stinking chair that he doesn't sit at all.(some ugly b'turd), Saturday volleyball practice, abortion(lol) of my second cca(sobz), failure of finding proper links to my songs(even if there is, I put it up and it doesn't work. WAH~) and... I got my grades back. They're terrible. TERRIBLE. WAH!~~~

    The baka got a proper chair (unlike me) after the NPCC's arranged the tables and chairs back in the classroom. I wanted to change my chair with his. WHY? CUZ HE DOESN'T SIT THERE. HIS BAG ONLY HAS LITTLE PREVEILEGE TO LEAN ON THE TABLE'S LEG. Then he bargained. If I stated my reason I'll sound like some b!tch. So I surrendered, with him fuming over his stupid chair and whatever stinkin' knot.

    Yea I'm thinking of dropping Chinese Orchestra. 1)I've missed three lessons straight. 2)My volleyball clashed on one of the days. 1st cca piority number UNO. 3)I just found out today (the sat practise)about the days changed from Tues and Thurs to Mons and Weds. Weds I have chinese orchestra. 4)I've started to like volleyball quite some time ago already. I have to say goodbye to zhong ruan...

    My grades... HAH! My languages (Literature included) BARELY, MARGINALLY (recently learned this word) PASSED. My sciences and maths so far the best. Nope, not even home econs. Sigh...

    I've read something cool with VERY GOOD English. Singaporean too, and very fluent and excellent english for compos. Alright so here it is...

    The things that stick out most about that day, are the sand and the sun.

    Lying upon a gravelly beach, the merciless midday sun beat down upon me. It was sweltering that day. Well, it was sweltering almost every day - that’s one of the features of living in a small island off the equator, after all. Still, the heat of that day remains vivid in my memory: How drops and drops of sweat clawed their way up to the surface of my skin, how they collected into tiny streams and bled languidly down my front. My arms, spread-eagled outwards, were covered in a thin layer of sand and grit, the sweat providing a glue of sorts. The gossiping chitter-chatter from the girls in my class blurred into a low buzz, and soon, all I could feel was the rough sand I clenched in my hands, and the slow journey of the sweat rivulets coursing their way down my skin.

    That day at the beach was our last outing we had as a class. We had just graduated from high school, and found ourselves at a crossroads. The girls were going into college, chattering excitedly about how much accountants were paid with a few year’s worth of experience under their belts, about how interesting the course description for mass communication studies sounded, about a bash to be held in the honor of incoming freshmen at some trendy club a week from then. Their talk was cheery and bright. It was the talk made by people who were genuinely excited about their future, about the possibilities that lay in store.

    The guys were silent.

    We were due for military conscription soon. I was one of the first in my class to be called up, due for service in three day's time, and I was hardly looking forward to it. No, "looking forward to it" seems like little more than a hollow euphemism: I was despising it. I hated the fact that I had no choice in the matter, hated knowing that I would be ceding all right to decide the course of my life for the next two and a half years, hated realizing that if asked to jump I was to reply "HOW HIGH SIR?"

    I hated it.

    I hated listening to the girls prattle on about their bright future, because, then, there, I felt I had none ahead of me. I felt the darkness that was looming before me, and I struggled to see that distant gleam at the end of the tunnel that would take me more than two years to walk down. The irony didn't escape me then, that here I was, lying down at a beach with a fiery sun casting everything in white-hot hues, and yet, all I could see before me was darkness. I gripped the sand in my hands harder, if only to let my anguish find root in a physical form.

    And then, it came.

    I've had moments like that in my life before. Times when the world just seems to stop dead still and silent. Times when a second, measured by the pulsing in your veins, stretches out its gaping maw and swallows whole all of eternity. Times when the word "forever" feels less like an abstract concept, and more like the sand that's covering you from head to toe.

    I grasped eternity in the palm of my hand, and then I let it run through my fingers. The sands of time were rough, yes, but they were also reassuringly real, reminding me that I wasn't just dreaming. And flowed, they did. No matter how tightly I clung on to the sand, it still slipped through my fingers.

    Strangely enough, that began to give me hope. No matter how tightly the cruel hands of injustice gripped me, no matter how torturous the days ahead of me were to be, still the sands of time flowed on. Come what may, time and the hour runs through the roughest day, I told myself, laughing slightly at the fact that I still remembered slivers of Macbeth. All I had to do was survive, one day at a time. Grain by grain, the sands of the hourglass would run their course, and someday, someday, I'd be free again.

    I raised my right hand, by then free of sand, and reached towards the sky. If I placed it just right, the sun fitted nicely in the hollow of my palm. It was there, ripe for the picking, and all I had to do was close my fingers around it. The hope that began with the sand ended with the sun in my hand. Tomorrow may not have belonged to me anymore, I realized, but so what? The day after that was mine, and if I but reached for it, I could have the world.

    I closed my fingers.

    ~End~

    Ultimately I want my English like this! MUAHAHAH! Cough... Its from Semtember 24, Friday, 2004. A deep 'buried' archive post. A blog post, in other words. This waixin thingy. REALLY COOL. Too bad I don't give away links like this. MUAHAHAHAH! Cough...


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    (Tuesday, March 14, 2006/6:39 PM)

    As anyone who stumbles/looks into this blog now...

    There's a playlist. See? Updated.

    Oh about the party... very random sh!t. The barbeque nearly went haywire if not for our form teacher to come to the rescue! Alright. No good games. There. Nth much special, but our class bonds are stronger among those who came to the party.


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    (Friday, March 10, 2006/2:43 PM)

    F**ck lah... Bad day once again.

    And to freakin hell the baka goes...(Too disgraceful to specify)

    There was this peer evaluation thingy, which if there's problems about each group member not doing their work, report to teach. in black and white get them pinalised. ALL the other members except the lazy asses have to write a grade. And in my group, doing friggin photography, appears to have two lazy asses. One of them, being the jackass he is, is the Chairman. WHY DON'T HE JUST SIT IN A CHAIR AND GO ---- -------?!?!?!

    Once the geog. teach made the announcement and left, he gleefully shouted to the other boy that they were to be pinalised for it. I couldn't hear through the noisy class and I grouchily tell him like 'YOU ALSO LEH." Thn he threw a fricken (I think that its a german word as in 'to strike? It was suggested that 'the F word' originated from that) hissy sissy fit. I was already in a bad mood when I was told something, that some problem was going to reveal itself during the party, and thn THE FRICKEN guy went purposely in front of me and said stuff to the Management boy like a b****! To hell lah, I nearly bursted and shouted "YOU GOT A FREAKIN PROB WITH SOMEONE HAVING A FREAKIN EAR BLOCK CUZ OF A STUUUUUUPID BALL?! U THINK I'M HAPPY AH?!" The chairman's an asshole who never truthworthy of keeping stuff. To hell lah. Contributed NTH, jus attending the very first meeting for taking photos, NTH ELSE. ONLY ONE OUT OF 4-5 MEETINGS. HOW ON EARTH CAN WE DO A PROJECT. IT WAS LIKE JUST 4 MISERABLE US DOING THE ENTIRE DAMN THING. Management boy also didn't do much, obsesed with his singing. -.- Might as well don't study well.

    To hell with everything, signing off...


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    (Thursday, March 09, 2006/7:50 PM)

    Had pretty bad week so far... apart from the normal chat in MSN... Hope time would fly soon to this Sunday...

    Bruises and stuff... stress and freaking projects. SO MANY TO DO. I had a nose bleed by volleyball smash. I mean it. The seniors (guys) thought it was that my tooth fell out. -.-""
    Wait till I get to extract their teeth out... lol. And nope I did not cry. Only until later that night when I found that my ear got infection and dun wan to wear anything like a burden... F**k lah...

    The previous days dun wanna mention. There. Oh yea see my sch project blog http://planetrubbish104.blogspot.com


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    (Monday, March 06, 2006/6:04 PM)

    Sat, 4.3.06

    Today I still went to sch. Why? The whole sch went for a newpaper(old clothes, old electronics. junk, literaly) collection thingy. CIP you can call it. As my class and I are freshmen, we get to go to the nearer blocks. =) It was a little fun, just that so much for me not bringing my supply of water... We had to do some reflection worksheet too... blahblahblahblah.

    After that, Jas, Zoe.Y and me went window shopping and came across something to give to our counsellors! (4 of them 2 of each gender.) I thought up of the totally flowerly and pink boxes, and hoped the two male counsellors wouldn't mind, would they? XD Our OIC(overall in-charge) counsellor's Bdae was approaching, so yea.

    Thn the three of us went to MacDonald's to eat. Thn met a few other classmates that were involved with the upcoming party(changed to the 12th) preparations and of course, Head of Functions! Haha, hoho, time to bully ppl... XD Nah I'm not that evil...I think? Oh well so yea... we went to IMM.. on the train there we had left out one girl! Poor her.. but she's a strong girl, it shouldn't be a big deal. Ok so we went to IMM, bargained about what to buy as we had still about a week to prepare and blah blah. The meat and stuff had not been bought, as they were sponsored and stuff. It was somewhat fun overall, just that the Chairman couldn't much take the heavy load I was to carry home.(he helped on some of e journey home) Hah!

    Sun, 5.3.06
    I had finally changed the strings on my guitar. Really happy its done... as I did not get to play it for a entire week. Argh. It was kept with the music school lol.

    I jus found out my best friend, also my sis, felt very... sad, empty, wadever. 1)Issues on a boy in her class and 2) Grandmother passed away. I really wish she feels better sooner or later.

    Today!~

    Handed up Geog. project, uh-huh. As Geog. reap(wadever e spelling), collect all the other Geog. projects, uh-huh. After school went to find Geog. teacher, uh-huh. Sort out which group has not handed-in project, uh-huh. PREPARING FOR HOME ECONS TML. YIPEE!~ FRIED RICE. YIPEE!~


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    (Friday, March 03, 2006/9:18 PM)



    I'm sorta depressed... I was darn straight moody during recess... playing table-tennis today was like a chore, but which I wanted no one else to do... Odd isn't it? The above is one of my favourite pics... Something dark, beautiful and exotic. I sound dark do I?

    Cause people not happy with their secondary schs, they make like um... 'irritating and repetitive' remarks and thoughts of their new school... I was thinking like 'C'mon! Get over that damn fact! Do something to change it a little to your preference.'

    Table tennis... solved some photo-print problem... more table tennis...water... and thn... Like out of the blue, SINGING. Well, I DID mentioned about '04 Idol' didn't I? Well the Head of Management wanted to practise his singing and viola, I've turned slightly 'mouldy' of the rest of the day. (Not that his singing is bad, but it reminded me of seomthing...) But thn had MacDonald's McFlurry... Makes me wanna fly with Oreos... I have sugar rush with Oreos...

    Thn came back, lots of MSN online chatting... and foul mood sorta came back. Plus my bro wasn't feeling well... severe headahe... so much for lots of SPEEDY food.... The weather's rather glaring and hot... its reasonable to get sick under such hot weather... and when you least expected it, it will rain... HEAVILY. The kind of weather I dislike the most is those right after the rain... so wet and stuffy and humid and uncomfortable and... ARGH!!! Good thing it wasn't like that for today...

    Feel like posting a song lyrics so there:

    Sometimes I get so wierd
    I even freak myself out
    I laugh myself to sleep
    Its my lullaby

    Sometimes I drive so fast
    Just to feel the danger
    I wanna scream
    It makes me feel alive

    [Chorus]
    Is it enough to love?
    Is it enough to breathe?
    Somebody ripped my heart out
    And leave me here to bleed
    Is it enough to die?
    Somebody save my Life
    I rather be anything but ordinary please

    To walk within the lines
    Would make my Life so boring
    I know that I have been
    To the extreme

    So knock me off my feet
    C'mon give it to me
    (Sry forgot)
    (Sry forgot)

    [Chorus]

    I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

    Lower down your defences
    Use no common sense
    If you look you will see
    That the world is a beautiful,
    Accident, turbilant, sucellent,
    Opulant, permanent, no way
    I wanna taste it,
    Don't wanna waste it away

    Sometimes i get so wierd
    I even freak myself out
    I laugh myself to sleep
    Its my lullaby

    Is it enough, is it enough?
    Is it enough to breathe?
    Somebody ripped my heart out
    And leave me here ot bleed
    Is it enough to die?
    Somebody save my Life
    I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
    I'd rather be anyitnhg but ordinary please.

    This is 'Anything but Ordinary' by Avril!!! Sry if there's mistakes, its typed out from memory. I really love this song, it describes me... in a way.

    Sortta tired now, gd nitez!~


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    (Thursday, March 02, 2006/9:58 PM)

    I feel sick now... Its like my stomach pumped with air, and whatever I taste that's odd, I have great difficulty swallowing it down... HELP!!!

    Well, my mom told me to break some wind tonight. (LOL know what does breakwind means?) I really hope I can get better for school tomorrow. I like my school. And I just realised, I find that people who don't quite like or had not gotten used to the new sch yet very...immature. I mean like c'mon, its time to change for the better. Wad people dun like, change it.. or someting like that. (I'm blabbering rite now, so there can be lots of typos... and I'm so lazy to correct myself tonight...)

    About my class party... I believe its gonna be nice... but maybe the '04 Idol' part. I dun believe we would have the sound system and all that stuff. We got the people, true, and the auditions tml... I'll just see how things go. And NO WAY am I joining the idolisation(wadever the spelling). Maybe... if there's something good about it in the end of the competition. I CAN TRULY BE LIKE SIMON COWELL!!! Well, I don't hate him, in fact, I respect him alot, especially his views and points in American Idol. By the way Katherine and Christ from American Idol Season 5 rox!!!

    Back to topic about the party activities... the head of managedment at first was kinda desperate as he has to give in the details to our form teacher within two days...(today he handed it in I think.) I must say, the list was pretty organised... so I guess things will be good...and hope we have a blast!~

    Today I had volleyball. Its really fun for today!~ I guess this is the first time I truly enjoyed volleyball for a day... Think again, its a NO. It what had caused my hiccups! Well, at least I know that my hiccups started during volleyball. And maybe thanks to the receieving and volleying and spiking and jumping for the sake of the volleyball, I think it has worsen. At first I was happy having them as (I think) its a sign of growing taller. (Its like a 'HIC!' and your back suddenly straightens all of a sudden) But now... argh...

    I go and try to soothe it somehow, and thn try to get to sleep now. Nites!~


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    (Wednesday, March 01, 2006/9:28 PM)

    Haiz..

    First of all, things were sort of desperate for the class 104's Head of Functions, as we had planned a BBQ cum water bomb fight cum Amazing Race cum 04 Idol cum party. Lots of fun stuff, that's for sure! The class is divided to 5 groups(I think), each having an AIC (Assistant-In-Charge. I think. dunno wad crap.) and few other people, just as party members and players and all the fun stuff. ITS HAPPENING THIS SUNDAY!!! YAY!!!~

    By the way, remember the boy who was hit in his face mercilessly by the ping-pong balls? He's the Head of Functions. Ain't lying, and he's a nice guy.

    Skipped my Chinese Ochestra today, in a sense that I needed to do something, and was feeling quite moody, unwell etc.

    Its only today I found out the name of my best friends um... infunctuater(right use of word? Its from the word 'Infunctuation'.) He's a sweet lover who adores my best friend... why isn't that nice. He's really quite a nice guy too, I must say.

    Sry gtg, bitchy mom's nagging. Bye!~


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