"I reject your reality,
And substitute my own."


Currentszz

Evelia T.Z.R a.k.a Evie/Evee (T_T)
11th January 1993
Capricorn
Baka-Ninjas Cosplay Team Shizune, Lenalee, A.B.A <3


Short and spastic as hell when da mood strikes =3

"Ya betta watch out, uh-huh uh-huh...

I am worth, $3,456,190



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[00]Any decent phone with a camera and bluetooth functionality..lol
[01]New Mp3(Got a new MP4 now =3)
[02]Decent O'lvl grades
[03]Have fun in da year, as much as I...
[04]$$$ -Clothes
[05]$$$ -Air tickets
[06]$$$ -Cosplay
[07]%%% -Food
[08]Decent Jap-singer
[09]Choir SYF-GoldSilver
[10]Striped thigh-high socks
[11]Pulverising stilettos? x)
[12]New cardigan/hoodie
[13]That cute plushie with built-in speakers...

And for Him to please TADA hurry back home~ <3 =D

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designer: frozen.d}
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I'm someone who appreciates owls... lmao.

Anyways, today's of random feelin's. Let moi sort some out of moi messy head foi ya.

First off, maths test... real bad. Partly cuz of Mr Quek as well... made us waste time pounderin over an UNSOLVABLE QUESTION.. until he altered e question for a bit... like when e test ENDED IN E NEXT MINUTE?! Ello?!?! Last mintue change..psh. ANd partly cuz my mind went blank about factorisation... I'm bound to get killed for this. x(

Next, the damn hao-lian feelin. I'm an EQUAL-BRAINED through a test. baha. bahaha. The another test is for one to make how many assumptions n attemps to make a candle be attached to e wall. E record was 13.. I got 17. Bahabaha. Kc tio 16, ChinBoon 16 also bah. WAHAHAHAHA!!! I PWN THEIR ARSES!~ =D

But actually. ALL of my solutions were based on assuming NORMAL walls and candles, not WALLS MADE OF GLUE, STICKY CANDLES, oh gawd no. If that was the case I'm following upon, I would've lined up a lovely 100+ ways for sure.. humph!~

Then I had e slight panicky(sp? do correct moi if moi wrong. =) ) moment. During MT lesson. Whoa, I jus told JAs (She's back!! YAY) that the teacherr is simply VERY Pro in table-tennis, e teacher turned her head to me, thinking that I needed to ask her a question of something. Whaz, real sharp ears wor!~ Ya get what I mean.

And then another gleeful moment. M C Escher presentation. Eza went to take all e credits from our peers loh... like wtf.. Doesn't matter that much nevertheles. I DID e slides, since I was lazy to decorate, knowing somehow it'll be troublesome (Shikamaru much, ne?), so I CUT E KEY POINTS REAL CHEESY, just like e teacher wanted. Huh? Wad one-man-show.. psh. I dun wanna talk much cannont meh? #@^^@#%$

"#@^^@#%$"...<= why is there a smilely? Gah.

And now behold.. agony. To complete a faggot poster about Crystal Growing. Peh.

Going off now... off blogging nia. =)

Ps. Changing e skin to suit e second song. Be around more. I need more page views. Hah.

Pps. 've cut my hair.. AGAIN!~ SKIIIPERDEEDOODADAE!!! x)

Michiyuki
By Yui Horie

setsunasa no kagiri made dakishimete mo
itsumade mo hitotsu ni wa narenakute

yasashisa yori fukai basho de
fureau no wa itami dake
futari wo musunde kudasai

bokura wa mou yume wo minai
tomadoi nagara te wo totte
zankoku na yoake no hou he
arukidasu
hontou no kotoba wa kitto
hontou no sekai no dokoka
bokura no mukuchi na yoru ni
hisonderu
ima mo kitto

sabishisa wo shiru tame ni deau no da to
kuchidzuke wo kawasu made shiranakute

soredemo ima kimi to aeta
yorokobi ni furuete iru
kokoro wo sasaete kudasai

bokura wa mou yume wo minai
atatakai basho he nigenai
zankoku na yoake wo kitto
koete yuku
akirameteta sono shizukesa
hontou no kotoba wo kitto
aishi kizutsuke au tame ni
sagashidasu
itsuka kitto

setsunasa no kagiri made dakishimete mo
itsumade mo hitotsu ni wa narenakute

yoake mae no tsumetai hoshi
futari dake no michiyuki wo
douka terashite kudasai

Even if you embrace me until it's suffocating
We will never become one.

In a place deeper than gentleness
Touching each other is merely pain.
Please bind the two of us.


We will dream no more,
Joining hands in uncertainty
Walking towards
The cruel dawn.
True words are surely
Somewhere in the true world,
Lurking
In our wordless night.
Surely even now


Meeting each other in order to know loneliness,
We won't know until we exchange a kiss.
Even so, I am trembling with the joy
Of having met you.
Please support my heart.

We will dream no more,
We can't run to a warm place.
We will surely overcome
The cruel dawn.
The abandoned quietness
Will surely find
The true words
In order to lovingly hurt each other.
Someday surely

Even if you embrace me until it's suffocating
We will never become one.

O cold starts before dawn,
Please light
The path that's just for us.

I feel that e lesser peeps we got for choir, all the more we sounded nicer.. =D

Especially today. For one time we practised together (all sops, altos, tenors, and bass) we were to sing seated or anywhere wee want, just anywhere and relax and sing. I felt that I sounded... oookay. (=>.<=)

The piano part sounded so sad, y'know? Kyrie Eleison... Just keep repeating that phrase and 'Christe Elesion'. Real sweet. For a short period of time it was raining as we were about to start, it stopped after we sang it through real well. =)

The Tumbur song still better... Hungarian and real cute and FUN!!! When all e sections separated for a while we sang that song.. neighbouring classroom were e Altos...

They were like... "....WHAT ARE THEY SINGING?!"

Lmao. ^^ Here. Da linkie. Gotta be patient with this linkie =>Regi Tancdal.

By e way, today Xiao Hui (Eza)'s poor hand was push at the fuckin' door all thanks to some asshole. That bitch (a guy, but not considered 'manly' wor. So why not call him a bitch?) ought to go fuck himself... $#%*!@$@*!!!! Her da wedding finger like got dent loh. He still say it was her own fault that her hand SLIPPED there. But then WHY E FUCKING HELL DID HE WANNA CLOSE E DOOR WHILE A NUMBER OF US WANNA GET OUT OF E CLASSROOM EH?!?! Bloody Fuck-tard.

Look, at least give an apology. U EVEN WANNA BLAME E PERSON WHO GOT HURT. WAD FUCKING LAME REASON WAS TAT?!?! U THINK WE LIKE LIZARDS WITH SUCTION PADS ON OUR PALMS IZZIT?!?!

Cao Ji Bai. =X

Oh well, I feel better now... heh.

One more thing of todae... Check out Faz's blog for a awother wimportant wevwent that hwappened twodae: PAPER BALL FIGHT!!!

ON E GIRL'S SIDE, FAZ AND T.Z.R!!!!! AND ON E BOYS SIDE, BELOH-FISH-HANAFI, CRAZED-DANCER-RAAFIQ AND KANCHIONG PARTH!!!! BUT WAIT, ITS TWO-AGAIN-THREE? CLICK DA SAID LINK TO FIND OUT!!!!

... x)

Jas, get well soon wor!~ =)

Hehheh. Long time no post le..

Alright I'll just write wadever I can remember, ne?

So... today was nice. I met a few friends (of Esther's as well, in Commonwealth Sec.) and they were so awesome!! And Renfang also mah, hahaha. I make big book-slapping noises in da library, good thing no supervisor or wadever-ya-call-them were there. Smacked Renfang, Esther and Article (Atikah..is it?) on their butts!! Wheee!~ >=)

Then da previous day... (or so, I can't count exactly which so deal with it) had this Chinese Opera Appreciation thingy... Sinscerely with da beloh fish (Hanafi) and some crazed-dancer of sorts in moi class (Raafiq) were there, it was pretty much funny. No, not laughing at their actions or antics on stage, but those two said peeps. They were like AssUMe-ing those up on stage were my idols...

Truth is, those.. somewhat dainty movements and occasional bouncy liftoffs are VERY HARD to perform... or you'll needa practise often to get it right. I know it, cuz moi cca was Chi. dance in Pri sch... The movements must be like, sorta forced... then later soften e body with natural ease after some more practise.. aiya so hard to explain wor! Yea snigger that I was in Chinese Dance in sch before...

But NO, they aren't my idols, but they are good. I hate it if some Chinese just laugh at the opera... like c'mon.. its sorta... shameful? I don't know how to put it. Don't take my words WAAAY too seriously. I'ma sucker for Chinese, but I do appreciate and respect those traditional entertainments... and yes, I do not like much of e asian music of nowadays.

I'm just me, and its just so hard to maintain... me.

I feel like I wanna go transfer to Commonwealth straight away. They are like TRULY a family. Like, at e library there were LOTS of commonwealthians, then as group by group they left, no matter whoever, they'll all say like, goodbye to each other. Soo much nicer than... this sch in which "though I see u very often, but I neva talk to ya, or got involved with ya much, or in a different group, I ignore u" kind of thing. This is like, sooooo often in this school.

Psh. Shall stop further complaints... =X

I'm always havin regrets or second thoughts of some stuff... always. And right now its about a part of me that wants to be 'living' being frozen. Role playing... I need e right circumstances to thaw out that spirit, or it shall shrivel up in that darkness yearning for something more in my student life again. No inspiration, I don't want anything too high or too low.. and I know that I'm askin WAAAY too much.

Man, how much more dwelling into depressions can I drill myself before struggling from a breakdown?

Thinkin back about him is killing me all over again. I'ma versatile chick my ass. I. STILL. CAN'T. GET. OVER. IT. Try not to make me remember... yet I hav only me to blame.

Oh well, this girl has some music track to switch in this blog... only finding her mind blank on which song she wanted to put up again.

Ayeaye, today went shopping!!! GAHWAHWAHWAHWAHWA!!!!


Just e two of us, me n Jas. Nobody else wanted, or had the time to go...


They were sooo missing out!!


=P

Its so nice to be happy, tralalalalahhh!!!~~~


Hehe.

Got an awesome Newbie skirt, a nice blue top, a nice dream-catcher (call me supertitious or wadever I DO. NOT. CARE. Wheee!~), a ring and a friendship anklet (we both bought e same one... -Hee!~)

And e dreamcatcher... Mom nearly gaged me. XD $45... wahgagagagagah.

Jas got a SWEET top! Lined-strap top with another shirt or something over it with e word 'Sweet' on it. So cute sia. =) She also bought a nice skirt... and neat dogtags.. real neat. Juz needa do some engraving.. too bad that shop was closed.

There were jus ALOT of clothing stores in there... U GUYS WERE MISSING OUT REAL BAD! BWAHWAHWAHWA!~ <3

School tmr... jeepers. =/
BuzzBuzz. Yadayada.



Ps. New skin coming up!~

Got quite alot for a yr... I almost couldn't manage it while walking home in the pouring rain, struggling to balance a puny umbrella with another friend...

Presents I mean.

Somehow I felt angsty the whole of yesterday... and got very upset or angry easily yesterday. Indeed, my birthday.

Growing-fucked-up-pain-my-ass.

ITs just plainly stupid. All of a sudden I think of some stuff and I get to the verge of crying and get mad all over again... Its tiresome strain to da brain.

Then I hadda talked to my dad, and I guess that made me felt better. I didn't talk much actually. He did most of it. He didn't expect me to think more maturely at some aspects... and I knew it. Nobody quite knows me. I just know it. So yea, I voiced some crap out and then he did most of e talkin. That really made me felt better.

So the torment of an age older is gotten over with.

I dunno, I just felt foul over the past few days. Ever since sch started I had somethin to look forward to. Like this coming Sunday. Mateys-Chi.-New-Yr shopping. =) Get some clothes and shoes n stuff. (YX got me nice shoelaces. Gotta get some decent shoe for them.) The problem was that I get really moody once I get back home. but now I'm alright.

This morning Mom was such a make-me-real-mad kind of bimbo. Heavy rain, keep yelping when e bus left, wanted to walk me to e other bus stop but then stopped halfway thn got back to e block we stayed in. SHE NEVER LISTENS. Got me bloody pissed off. I pray that I won't be like that... 'deaf' when I grow up. I'm sure to pray hard...

There's something to look forward to, and now thus I post again.

Happwee Bweelatwerd BweeDae to mwee.

Going for guitar grading during late March...

That day (less than a week more now), though nearing, am so NOT lookin forward to it. I guess I'll abandon what I love, 'cept for guitar and readin... and squigglin.

Yes, even role-playing. I'm giving up on things I think too much off. Keeping my mind blank is preferbly better... I think.

So... Stuck-and-Undecided? I guess no more.

I've made up my mind.

I'm dying today. Cold feet and hands.... burning forehead that might probably soon melt...

No, only after Saturday would I wanna fall ill... Guitar... dun wanna miss it.
I'll manage..somehow.

This blog's dying anyway. I'll die along with it.

Seeya...somehow... if I ever decide to come back. Probably updating songs.. that's about it.

I've promised to myself that I'll keep my heart broken.
That's that.